My Dearest A----,
It’s a shame how two hearts this close now feel somewhat miles apart inside. There is no greater sorrow, as well to recall in great misery, the memories we spent beneath our oak tree. There is no greater pain, as well to recall in great depression, the number of times where I have felt the drum of your heart beside mine. It hurts to reminisce how close our love was, yet then to recognize how distant it is now.
I am forced upon myself to eradicate these memories planted within my head and heart, and thrust them towards the past. I am forced, because, holding them will only remind me of what is not real, and what is no longer here with us, and because of that, I suffer. But I know that what we had, did at one point, exist and was alive. It breaks my heart, and stabs my soul to walk away from what we’ve experienced together that was true and genuine.
Our love was the type of love that set off a spirit of delight and joy, that made me reach out for more, and that's what you have offered and provided me with throughout these past years. I tried to do the same to you, but evidently, I somehow failed. In our future, I wanted to grant my love for you everyday, forever, but, there was a drastic change, and I believe now, God has made a new and improved plan for you that does not consist of myself; otherwise you’d still be here with me finishing, what we call this thing life, with me.
You shouldn’t feel dishearten over our detachment because a new life is in set merely for your own good, and if it forms a better life for you, I am willing to accept it, even if it tears my heart in two. So, if we approach each other in the future with our new lives, I will simply smile at you with glee and remember how we spent our time in the desert underneath the starry-night sky, talking about our future together, while our love was building up.
Everything I ever said to you A----, was real and true. Everything I ever whispered to you A----, was real and true. And everything I ever felt towards you A----, was real and true.
I will always love you, I’ll be seeing you and take care….
-SJR
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