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| Destiny Heals |
| by Love Raviegaye Espiritu |
It was the 23rd day of December. The season’s breeze was getting more and more chilly as the days went by. I felt somewhat lonely specially on the thought that I will be celebrating a bluer than blue Christmas once again. In order to take my mind off that feeling, I frequently consume most of my time in going to places where I could be alone and appreciate the beautiful things around me. Just like now ...
To unwind myself, I went to a valley just near our place. It is a place full of serenity and peace that I almost mistaken it as heaven itself. I let myself reminisce the unforgettable memories that I cherished in my heart. Suddenly a cold and modest wind blew and took my mind off that place. It brought me to a world where I can feel all the pains that I’m trying to hide inside.
In that realm, I could see my heart crying in pain being torn over and over by someone I cherished most. I saw the river of tears ceaselessly falling from a never ending well -- my eyes. Then everything that happened slowly dawned upon me. The truth is I just suffered from an intolerable relationship with someone whom I offered every breath of my life. It seemed to be a good start but our differences kept us apart from each other, that’s why he decided that it’s better for us to set each other free and look for another love.
That was three months ago, but the pain is still tangible. The depression and disappointment just won’t leave me and it kept on ruining my life. I have spent countless days and nights doing nothing except crying until I can weep no more. To top it all, I always sense a sharp knife stabbing me in my heart every time I see him with another girl. Up to now, it still hurts to know that no matter what I do and how hard I try, I just couldn’t let him go and move on with my life.
I was unaware that my tears are already starting to stream down because of the sufferings of my heart. I wasn’t even aware of the paces of a man drawing near. I didn’t notice him until he started to talk, “Why are you crying all alone in this place?” he said as he lent me his handkerchief to wipe the tears in my eyes. “May I sit beside you? I believe that you need someone to talk to, so that all those feelings locked inside your heart could get out, to make you feel better. I’m ready to listen, and I assure you that everything will be just between the two of us.”
I actually don’t know what to do or what to say, because I was still surprised by his sudden presence, and even his handkerchief remain unmoved. “Yeah, you could sit beside me. I don’t own this place so you have every right to sit wherever you want.” I said while handing him back his handkerchief.
“No, use it to wipe your tears dry, I wont use it anyway,” He said as he prepares to sit beside me. “You know, I got the feeling that we had the same problem and the same reason why we are here right now on this place. This is such a peaceful place to think and to be alone, but now that you’re here, well - I guess you’re an angel sent by God so that I will have someone to talk to and share my life.”
I felt something special about this guy, and I felt comfortable with him, especially when he said that we might have the same problems, because at last someone would understand what I’m going through. So I gathered all my guts to tell him my problems, to loosen the ties here in my heart so that I could breathe more easily. “The truth is, I’m here because I want to keep my mind off the fact that I’m celebrating Christmas alone once more. There is this guy that I loved so much, but he just played with my heart. That was three months ago and it’s funny to know that I still couldn’t forget him. Maybe, the love was just too great to be easily forgotten. That’s the reason why I’m crying. I was reminiscing all the things that happened and I’m not aware that my tears are already falling, that was the time when you came unexpectedly.”
“I’m sorry for the sudden intrusion. As what I’ve said, both of us is suffering from the same problem. My life, I guess, is as bitter as yours. Celebrating a Blue Christmas is really out of my mind, because I used to have this pretty girl in my life, but unfortunately she also played with my heart just like what happened to you. Worse, I found out that I’m not the only one in her life, there were actually three of us sharing and craving for her love, without anyone of us knowing it. It inflicted so much pain in my life because I really love her. That was four months ago but the grief that it caused is still tangible,” he said with bitterness in his voice. Then I noticed tiny specks of tears in the corner of his eyes.
“Here is your handkerchief. You said a while ago that you won’t be needing this, but now, you need this more than I do. Dry those tears of yours, that girl is unworthy of you. Don’t waste your precious tears.” I gently said to somehow brighten the dim conversation that was taking place.
“I’m sorry, I know big boys don’t cry but I just can’t help it.” He apologetically said. “No it’s nothing. I understand you. Isn’t it funny? Here we are, two people suffering from our unbearable pains, talking to each other. I guess destiny permits this to happen to us - meeting this way and ending up crying.” I said to create a light atmosphere between us. That fact made me smile and laugh.
It made me happy to see him smiling too because knowing that I made someone’s day brighter brought joy in my wounded heart. And we end up laughing together to what happened in our lives. He faced me up to introduce him and that was the first time that I got the hold to look at his face. And I was stunned with what I saw, for in front of me, I behold an angelic figure. His eyes was the prettiest fair of eyes I have ever seen, they had that magnetic charm that knocks me off my feet. His smile was so different, something in it can make someone’s life full of bright. His face was like an angel that really touched my heart. I asked myself, “How could that girl resist this angelic charm? She was such a fool for letting him go!” I can say that what I saw already healed my broken heart and not only that, he made me fall in love again!
I learned that his name was Ian, that he was just a few blocks away from this place, that this is his favorite place here in our village. After that we exchanged numbers hoping and believing that, that would not be the last time that we’ll see each other. He gave me his handkerchief to serve as a symbolic figure of that moment when fate led our feet to one another... |
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