| There is this guy, who's name i wish not say, he was perfect in everyway. In my eyes atleast. He talked to me for a few days, and then he decided to give me his number. See i didnt ask for it, he just wanted to give it to me. In the note it said " Hey Sara, give me a call at like 1 o'clock" and then the number was written under it. I was kinda excited, not to mention happy. So that day i went home, and sat at my kitchen table, reading the note over and over. it was about 12:30 in the afternoon, and all of a sudden i hear someone outside screaming my name really loud. I get up to see who it is, and sure enough, it was the guy. My heart jumped so far, that i wasnt sure what was happening. So i opened my front door and went outside. We sat on my porch for about 2 hours talking over and over! It was a perfect moment. I believe it was like a brand new start. Like love at first site. Well, he left, because he had somewhere to be. He gave me a hug good-bye and said that he would give me a call when he got back. So all day i was thinking about him, and around 7:30 he called me. Adn we talked till like 3:30 in the morning, just about stupid stuff...He made me laugh and smile, and joke about everything. I never felt that way in a long time. He told me he liked me, and i didnt know what to say, so i just said that i like him too. He told me about his ex, and everything that went wrong with that, it really didnt bother me because im a great listener, and i love listening to other people talk. Well we hung up because we were both tired, and he said that he would call me in the morning when he woke up. And sure enough he did. He called me at like 9:30 in the morning, and asked me to come over. So i went over there, and we talked some more, and then went out to eat. It was great. There was never a moment i wasnt smiling or laughing. Well, two weeks passed, and we were still talking, and i told him that i think i was falling in love with him. And he smiled and said " Your crazy right, because everyone thinks im ugly, and no one likes me" I told him to shut-up jokingly, and i explained that its not just the looks i like, but its everything about you that makes me feel this way. He understood, and again, we started talking over and over. Now its the third week, and he begins to ignore me, and i want to know whats up. everytime i try talking to him, he makes excuses. I try my hardest not to let it show, but i end up crying to one of my good friends that knows him, and she is totally there supporting me. She talked to him for me, and he said he didnt like me. Right there i was torn in a million pieces. I couldnt breathe, i was shaking, and there was knot in my throat that just wouldnt go away! All day i tried avoiding him, when he talked to me the very few times he does, and i just totally blew him off. Now, i want to talk to him about this..but i know it wont make a difference. I finally found the one i need to keep me smiling and laughing. And now that i realize it, every word he has said to me was a lie. He told me he would do anything to see a smile on my face. Well, im not smiling..and he isnt here to do anything about it. He said he wanted me to trust him, and that i could trust him. And i did, but he lost it, respect and all, and he's never getting it back. I guess it just goes to show, you cant always get what you want, and what you need, instead you'll get the bad end of the stick, no matter how hard you push love. |
