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| Missing You... |
| by Michelle Blauth |
Eight months ago, I started dating this guy. He was my brother's best friend and he was over my house quite a bit. I had always liked him and he finally asked me out. So we were together for about a month and I had completely fallen in love with him. I would have done anything in the world for him and i still would. One night, him and I, and a few of our friends went out, and I took off with him. I got in a lot of trouble for it. I got grounded for a month, and I wasnt able to see him or speak to him. It was so hard. I had never been so lost in my life. I cried for hours each day. He broke up with me and that killed me. He told me he wanted a break because we couldnt see eachother and it hurt him.Well it hurt me too. So a few months went by and we never got back together. Infact, we stopped talking all together. I never stopped thinking about him. I cried every day for six months. And I would sleep in his sweatshirt, and cuddle with the stuffed animal he had gotten me for Valentine's Day. I still have the rose he got me too. But I still cried. All the way up until the other day. We started talking again. He even came over my house. And then he kissed me. I was on top of the world. He told me he still cared about me and that made my hopes shoot up. And I knew that if nothing happend and we didnt get back together my world would fall apart all over again and I wouldnt be able to deal with the pain. Well, we have stopped talking again and my world fell apart again just as I predicted. And the pain is unbearable and I can't take it anymore. I am now in counseling for depression and I dont know what to do. I am scared to fall in love now because I can't go through this ever again. I love him so much and I always will. Today, it has been 7 months since we broke up the first time and I am still crazy about him. There are some things he did to me that I did not mention that hurt me more than anything. And even though he hurt me so much, I would still go back to him over and over again, and I know that's stupid, but that's what love does to you right?
I still love you Dave:(
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