I was the new girl in your school you were the year ahead of me, i remember you standing in the yard and staring at me as i passed, you grabbed your friend and mumbled something, and i Just knew you were the one for me. Eventually we started talking and things went very slowly, we wrote love letters, but i wanted you to be more pushy!
i ended up with someone else and it broke your heart. It broke mine too as i didnt want this man i wanted you!
I wanted to make you jealous and for you to act out how you felt, i shouldnt have doubted you and we would still be together.
Time passed and we met again, alot happened in my life, but you were there for me. Things didnt change between us, i still loved you very much, and again we went our separate ways.
Heart broken again i was looking for something to fill the void, so i found a guy and told you, yes history repeating itself. Eventually you text me to say that you had something to tell me, i knew what it was, you said you had a new girlfriend. my heart broke into a million pieces, i knew i had lost you forever. I bragged and said my relationship was great and all the plans i had. I bit my lip and told you i was happy for you and that i hope it works out.
We continued texting, and a few months into it, i had enough i text you and told you that i loved you. I wasnt expecting the reply i got, but you told me you loved me too. but something happened along the line and im still trying to figure out what.
You are still with her, and it kills me.
I love you enough to let you go only if this is what you truely wanted, but she found out you were in contact and now you dont text no more.
Its been 7months since you text me, and all i want to see is, i love you, i love they way you made me feel.
And most of all, im sorry for hurting you, for expecting a fairytale of a romance, maybe we arent destined to be together in this life, who knows maybe the next..
I do love you *Nick, from your *lucy....xx |
