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| Will I ever get a second chance with the man I truely love? |
| by Paula |
It was two years ago on September first.This coming Sunday will be exactly two years and I can not believe how the last month has gone for me.I met my true love on the night of his 34th birthday(September 1st)and I thought that I was the happiest person in the world.He made me feel so good about myself and my life that I didnt ever have another doubt in my mind about our love or life together until August 12th of 2002.We were at home having some problems with some of the plumbing in our house and the city we lived in came out and told us we had a week to get out.That they were going to condemn our house.This was not a big deal because our landlord had already warned us that this was going to happen.But we thought we would already have a house by the time it happened.Well they showed up before we had found one to our likings.So I had to take my daughter and myself to a near by friends to stay and he went to his friends house to stay,only till we could find a house which would have only taking one more week.we were just waiting for an approval from a application we had put in on a beautiful new home for exactly what we were wanting to spend.One week after i went to my friends and he went to his.The most horrible thing happened to me.More horrible than anything else inthe world.I had went to spend the night with him.And we had a wonderful evening and night together than we had ever before.Only to be woke up to the worst thing my ears had ever heard.It was hin telling me that he didnt want me anymore.
wow was I just having a nightmare???I kept trying to wake myself up but i couldnt and I was still hearing him say this stuff to me.I finally figured that he was really talking and that I was actually awake.I couldnt believe it,my whole life and world was crashing down around me.Why?Why.I still cant answer that question.I ask it to my self every moment I am awake and even when I am sleeping.I wake up in the middle of the night crying and shaking,nd even sometimes shaking so hard I feel like my bed is going to collapse.He never has told me why and I guess he probably never will.I had to move out of state because I couldnt even stay in the same area for the fact that I saw him everyday after he told me that and I couldnt beer to see him.I still cant beer to see him.Although I am in a completely state,I call him everyday and he talks like he had never hurt me.And I feel that it hasnt hurt him at all.Why do I hurt so bad And in turn he doesnt at all??Can anyone or anything help me get over this pain??If so will someone please let me know what or who????I have allready started going to a quack and he hasnt helped at all,so I an figuring he is just getting me for my money.I truely dont know how I will go on with the rest of my life without him.Someone please help,GOD please help me make it through this alive..... |
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