There was a time in my life I thought we would be together forever. I have missed you so much. When I found out you were to marry another it broke my heart. After all these years I thought you had forgotten me and it tore me apart. Then you contacted me, and now I have all of these feeling again. Please tell me this really isn't the end. If I have to live my life and not have you, I will die incomplete. Just the sound of your voice, and my heart skips a beat.
I feel so guilty because I know you are with another. It is wrong for me to wish that you were mine. Why did we part, if only I could change time. I want to have my soul mate back. We were best friends, and lovers. We laughed, and we cried. I see the pictures of you, and wish it was me by your side. I haven't felt this much in so long. I have been cold and and distant if the truth be told. I will never love the way I loved you. Openly and with all that I am, I will always love a taken man.
I resent her for having you, and I know that is not fair. My heart tells me that we should have been together and oh my God how I care. She touches your face, and kisses you good night, and I want to be that person, even though I know it isn't right. If only things were different and I could have you in my life. I would love you, and cherish you with all of my heart. I would never leave again, till death do us part. I would kiss you and hold you, and tell you how you make the stars shine. All of this I would do, if only you were mine.
It doesn't seem fair that a love so strong, should be taken away and never be shown. How can I live wanting a man I cannot have. I have to be tall and let no one see me cry, try to smile and pretend to laugh. My heart is halved, and my soul is torn. I think to love you was the reason I was born. All of things I can never say, I will just go on wishing each and every day. That maybe in time, things will change and you will again be mine.
I don't regret loving you, only not having you. Please don't let my thoughts scare you away. The only thing that could hurt more than not having you, would be never hearing your voice every few days. I will always love you. |
