|The Loss of a Loved One|
My mother called me into her opaque room, I didnâ€™t know what to expect,
It was a heartbroken conversation that I would forever keep in mind,
I listened to her mournful words with all respect,
Knowing that it was not my fault this time.
Her words will everlastingly haunt me,
Telling me that my beloved father is lifeless,
Hearing this news only six days before my birthday party,
I was without a doubt, speechless.
My only longing was to spend more time with him,
Who wouldâ€™ve known that he would vanish?
I wake up with nothing but memories that are dim,
Feeling like a nine year old who was banished,
Days were filled with nothing but sorrow,
Remembering crying myself to sleep,
Especially hoping to make it through tomorrow,
But this hope is something that I will always keep.
Six years later still wondering what I couldâ€™ve changed,
Maybe writing him more couldâ€™ve been a choice,
Allah will have an enormous punishment for that gang,
I wish I could just hear my fatherâ€™s voice.
Time to time I read his letters,
Accepting the fact that heâ€™s watching over me,
Believing this helps me feel much better,
But I still need him as you can see.
Days go by and all I have is memories,
I shouldâ€™ve used my time wisely,
Sick of missing you, canâ€™t seem to find the remedies,
Sorry for my foolish ways, please donâ€™t despise me.
My only thought is to have you here,
This is my last wish that I hope and pray,
You will forever be loved, sometimes expressed with tears,
Since you have disappeared, I have gone astray.
By: Sharaine Lisojo