Life is unfair this is what we often say but do we really think so?
Life is full of sacrifices, this is what we often hear but do the people who say this really mean it?
Maybe we all have our chances in life, whether we are happy about those choices that we made, who cares?
Life is a journey in which the greatest number of passengers are what we call “love”.
Love makes the journey worth while.
Though the journey is too long and hurting at times, without love it will mean nothing.
I may sound as if I knew a lot about this…in my point of view…I really do.
I’ve been a passenger of that ship where all I ever think of is how to find love….true love…and did come true…
I’ve met love when I was eighteen, he meant the whole world to me, and he showed me my worth.
He gave me the feeling of fulfillment and the feeling of security.
He also gave me the worst definition of ache.
Funny now when I think about the days when I used to cry everywhere, tortured myself, hated myself, everyone who loved me I pushed away.
Then I thought I recovered, I met this great guy who is not riding on my ship of love whom I shared my life with for 9 years now.
He loves me like forever but I don’t feel that way.
I started a family with him, have a great kid who resembles me in every way.
But why am I feeling this way? I know in my heart I feel empty and totally wrong for leading him on.
Then I met another, whom I call my greatest love, a love that can never be mine.
A love that will forever be asking me lots of what ifs….
Everyday of my life I kept on asking myself and waking myself up to reality that I will not be happy with my greatest love beside me…
You might ask why not? Believe me I tried it…..it didn’t work…
He let me go without shedding a tear, he let me go without asking me to think things over between us…he just let me go…
I cried million barrels of tears, asking why was it easy for him to let me go, why can’t he just kiss me and hold me close.
Tell me he loves me and will never let me go?
Now, what I really wanted is to be whole again, love myself and love the people around me, but if I will ride that ship again I told myself I will not go out until I have my greatest love.
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