I know I didn't come with instructions but what child did and at this age I know you wish I had
It's not all me and it's not all you but do your faults reflect in me? What were you like when you were my age?
If I could change I would...I'd go back to every wrong move I have made. If I could take the blame all the time I would. If I could take back all the shame I would.
There are secrets and feelings buried deep, deep beneath the wall i have built, they are to deep you can not see, but they never leave. No.
Yesterday seems dark, because there is a hole in my heart...the shape of you.
I want to let go, when I can't let my feelings show, never look back, freeze time...then there would be no past.
I feel helpless, inside the hurt, shame all bottled up inside...with out a relationship with you i am nothing.
My feelings cut me deep, what i have sewn I know shall reap.
Bruises and cuts, they dissapear and fade with time. Scars are forever, I don't want to leave any on those i care about.
I was never Daddy's little girl or Mommy's little angel.
I don't want to let go, I see you Please don't turn your back like you often do. And act like I'm not....cuz your all that i got.
Sometimes I wish I could walk in your shoes, but when my world goes quiet a song plays back in my head and i see the hurt i have bestowed upon you and that is what hurts the most, i realize i am the one confused, but are you too? I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean. I don't know how I got this way.
But that is all I am trying to wash away.
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