You wouldn’t understand no matter how hard you tried,
Can’t possibly know what I’m feeling inside.
You think you know everything about me, better than anyone else
But you’re wrong for even I don’t always recognize myself.
But I guess I don’t really expect you to
For you don’t realize what it is that I go through.
All the conversations begging you to let me
Do what I want to, what everyone else does that I see.
Why can’t I have that? Why can’t I go?
Why are you stopping me? It’s what I want you know.
All of my friends are doing it so why can’t I?
Don’t worry it’s not like I’m going to die…
Every day is a workout that puts me to the test,
And although I try right now, I never find my best.
I take one look around and think who am I trying to kid?
Ill never please everyone like I somehow wish I did.
I know I’m not perfect for who can be?
Still the thought is there, I wish you would see.
I don’t mean to always discourage or disappoint you,
But I can’t please both you and them too.
Some days it’s my boyfriend, sometimes it’s family,
Others times it’s peers, you, and yes, even me.
I know it may sound stupid, childish, or dumb,
But of all people you’d think you’d understand some.
It all might bug you, get you angry, or hurt you,
To you it’s all fake and stupid, but to me it all is true.
I don’t know what’s happening or who I will become,
Don’t realize what it all is that I’m trying to overcome.
One minute I’m okay, I’m happy and I love you,
Then the next I’m screaming out anger and I hate you.
Finally, overwhelmed by sadness, of what I’ve done,
All the pain erupts inside and my tears begin to run.
You know I don’t really mean everything that I said,
I was merely lost in the moment with too many thoughts in my head.
These feelings are confusing, so full of rage and hate,
But through it all pain, grief, happiness, and love do lie in wait.
I wish you would understand or at least just fake it,
Be willing to let me go and learn to somehow take it.
You know you may be right, and I’m the one that’s wrong,
But don’t bring me down for it and make me seem un-strong.
Trying to make me into someone you’d like to see,
Doesn’t give me the chance to find out all that’s me.
And if I make a mistake along the way,
Let me learn from the price that I’ll have to pay.
You can’t keep me hidden from all that’s real,
I’ve got to find the truth and know how it will feel.
I know it may sting you to watch me as I grow and change,
But you have to let me go and also learn to change.
It’s something you just have to do, put your trust in me,
Let me find my wings to fly, please set me free.
I’m no longer a child, I’ll be fine on my own,
Let me be myself and figure this out alone.
You’ve taught me the best you can over the course of the years,
Now it’s time to release me into the world as it truly appears.
I’m in the middle stage, I’m what they call a teen.
I’m learning to fly solo, there’s so much I haven’t seen.
This may sound hard but you’ve got to somehow try,
I’m asking for a chance to discover who exactly am I.
It’s time for you to take a step back to the side
So you can say I let her go, and I that I’ve tried.
I’m sorry to say this, but as a parent you don’t know
What it’s like to be me, to learn and to grow.
You just don’t understand, and though it may sound cheesy,
The times have changed in this world today…It ain’t easy. |
